Starting again

I first called my blog TBB------TRANSIENT BITTER BRAIN. It reflected my mind at the time but I was still working in hell. Now it is almost a year since I quit hell and I am starting to feel fiesty and more like my old (younger) self.

Problem-BIG GIANT SOUL SUCKING MEGA PROBLEM IS THE FAT. FAT FAT FAT. It is out of hand...not as bad as it was...I would say when I was sick from the mold in Hell and bedridden, I must have been about 450 lbs...I wore a 6X t shirt...loose but still...now I am in 3X shirts and weigh is around 400...I will take a reading for my start Wed.

There are so many things I have missed concerts. trips, dinners, Disneyland because I was too fat to go and knew I wouldn't fit or would be uncomfortable so I cancelled. Lotta money wasted too on things I paid for and cheesed out on.

So I still feel like ranting online and maybe it will help me, the writing cure, the writing diet---just sharing with other people...maybe it will make things easier. I am not ready to put up a picture at this point but soon. I bought a flip camera so I can do it easily.