Almost here

I put an ad on Craigslist for people who might want to do this with me. I hope I get some replies. I asked for no hate mail but I am sure I will get a bunch of those...people on CL are brutal to fat people...so much nicer to be a skinny alcoholic or a skinny crack head or heroin addict. Carb addicts unfortunately carry around their addict for all to see.

New Diet plan

I just bought that book METABOLISM B and it makes sense so on Aug 1st I am going to go on it religiously. You have to stick to phase 1 for 8 weeks, weigh and measure your body and then NOT weigh or measure for the whole 8 weeks. You also have to do 30min of exercise a day----which, I desperately need to do but will probably have to limit to 6 five minute sessions during the day. I am going to take horrible almost naked pictures and put the black bar over my eyes...when I get thru the first 8 weeks I will (hopefullY) post the most hideous and the improved images on here.

Starting again

I first called my blog TBB------TRANSIENT BITTER BRAIN. It reflected my mind at the time but I was still working in hell. Now it is almost a year since I quit hell and I am starting to feel fiesty and more like my old (younger) self.

Problem-BIG GIANT SOUL SUCKING MEGA PROBLEM IS THE FAT. FAT FAT FAT. It is out of hand...not as bad as it was...I would say when I was sick from the mold in Hell and bedridden, I must have been about 450 lbs...I wore a 6X t shirt...loose but still...now I am in 3X shirts and weigh is around 400...I will take a reading for my start Wed.

There are so many things I have missed concerts. trips, dinners, Disneyland because I was too fat to go and knew I wouldn't fit or would be uncomfortable so I cancelled. Lotta money wasted too on things I paid for and cheesed out on.

So I still feel like ranting online and maybe it will help me, the writing cure, the writing diet---just sharing with other people...maybe it will make things easier. I am not ready to put up a picture at this point but soon. I bought a flip camera so I can do it easily.

Ju-ly

I fell down on the job again, didn't keep up with this at all.
I will write more later. I just got a Flip camera and I have to learn how to use it.
It's July 4TH and I am going to dinner at vampire husbands.